Torturing Myself

I’m not really into Sadomasochism, but I really have been torturing myself this past week.

In the last 2-3 months I have barely played any XBox 360.  However in the last week two things happened which I have basically been counting the days down for months.  #1: The Broken Steel DLC came out for Fallout 3, meaning I could have my 2nd playthrough of it as bad guy finally.  #2: The UFC game for the XBox 360 came out.

To say I’ve been waiting for those two events woud be an understatement – I’ve had them marked on my calender, and got an alert on my Blackberry.  So after investing 10 hours into Fallout 3 on the weekend, then 2 hours on UFC when I got it on Tuesday……

I’m not playing them again for the rest of the week.

As much as I want to – I fucking ACHE, I YEARN, to play them – I’m using them as if they were a carrot dangling in front of me.  I want to play them so bad, but I refuse to play them until I get everything off my “urgent” to do list.  And by everything – that incudes 11 websites that are half in development and need to be finished.  That’s right – before I play either of these games again I have to get 11 new websites up and running.

Yeah.  Not fun.  But it keeps me motivated.  As I sit here coding away in wordpress or writing content, I just think about creating that Tank Abbott fighter in the UFC game and going to town on Brock, and it’s enough to keep me going, then once I get that done I will have 3 days of nothing but video games.

That’s pretty much why I haven’t written much lately.  I’ve had a lot to write about – but pretty much all my focus is on these websites and my work as a whole.